autism
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01.12.25
I’d taken my medication late (like, really late) two nights ago and I still feel the chemical punishment. The half life of these little blue capsules ensure that even if you remember before your next dose, you’ll be feeling it within the first few hours of forgetting. Unfortunately for me, I was asleep and woke Continue reading
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12.14.24
I don’t want to write. I don’t. I don’t want to write but if I don’t do something I feel like I will explode at the slightest sensation. If I’m not scrolling or sleeping, I feel like I’m drowning. You pushed me away and I know why. I know it’s not me and it’s not Continue reading
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11.26.24
This is my 27th November and I never remember just how hard the winter is. All light gone by 5pm. The chill of the outside sneaks through the walls and feels colder each time, even though the earth is warming. The last 6 months have flown by in a way that I appreciate but also Continue reading
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After You
I thought I knew what it was to be in love before I met you, but I was wrong. The way you walk, talk, breathe and laugh are all woven through the deepest abysses of my brain. The private language we wrote in jokes and looks. The way your beard felt under my fingernails and Continue reading
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08.01.24
I struggle to find a point in writing anymore, though there never has to be one. Though the signs of COVID-19 have now left my body, I still feel sick. I don’t recall the last time depression so dark and murky threatened to drown me. I cannot place blame on one thing or even three Continue reading
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07.07.24
Dearest Gentle Reader… just kidding. Hello dear friends. It’s been a while. I hope you’re well. I almost made a post back on 06.15.24, but the creative spark left as quickly as it came. So much has changed since we spoke last. Life never slows down for anyone, it seems. While I normally like to Continue reading
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04.07.24
Sorry… I know it’s been long. A month and a half has gone by. I could say it’s gone by quick, which would be true, but it also has felt like two or three lifetimes. A trial and error I have never known until now. Fully unpacked, adjusting, finding happiness where companionship lacks and finding Continue reading
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02.20.24
My body aches and boxes are strewn about as if wicked wind blew through. It’s the third day in my new apartment. My apartment. We made it. Everything is okay. Of course, my monthly visitor is here so I’m feeling over and underwhelmed at the same time. Yesterday morning I was smiling behind a mask Continue reading
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Dear Alyssa – When The Thoughts Take Over
Hi kiddo, I’ve wanted to write this for some time now, as life has been extra full of feeling lately. To say that our emotions have been like a rollercoaster would be an understatement. We seem to be in a good headspace today, Thursday the 8th of February, so now is probably the best time. Continue reading
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01.26.24
The thoughts are so loud that they bounce off the inside walls of my skull. I try to drown them out with weed and Taylor Swift but the tears and fears come anyway. Eyes sticky and red like the coating of my memories, I stop wiping them. I let it burn because I feel like Continue reading
Love, Anonymous 